Simply Regine~

for my hapiness...

2006-04-14T20:33:00.000+09:00

(PART 2 OF NEW ENTRY)

true friends

my true friends whom i pray will find their way to be loyal to me all our lives, as I know I always will to them.
i do pray that all of my friends are true, or will (in time) be true... or at least, most of what i expect.

it's difficult you know.. to always give and give and give, and not really receive back what you give. but hey, that's what LOVE is all about, right? not thinking of what comes in return... though it should be considered as a 2-way relationship, love needs not to be fair or equal... It only needs to be true.

true love

I still do pray that what i feel is right. i don't know if it is right... but for what i feel, what i know and what i've been through... i will continue to give worth to what we have.

i hope that in a good way, you know it is you. i dont know how that would be good coz I am not even sure of everything that has gone through as of now...but i just so want things to be right.

i cannot even define our experiences, i cannot understand our friendship, and above all, i just DONT KNOW what's in your head..

that's why i cant really move, i cant really act normal, i cant do the right things i ought to for you coz im so distracted with a lot of things.
i already dont know where we are and where we're going...
i feel like it's just been yesterday when everything seems to be in my control. when i know you, and i know me, i know us. but now, i dont really get a picture of anything... and what i'm afraid of is, to wake-up entirely losing you~ somebody i have focused on for the greatest and longest time, and i have believed to be worth the fight ive kept carefully here inside my heart.

this will be that last time i will be emo regine. when i come back, things will be clear for me.. i promise myself. i will let go if i should. and fight hard if i would.
i owe this to myself. and to the Lord.

this is all that matters to me now: my life, and my GOD.

you?
...you're a part of my life. =)
a real big one.

currently, i just feel like thanking you badly, though i had for a lot of times already.. haven't talked to you in a while, and for another 3 weeks i still won't. you are such a difficult person. (o ayan may pangpantay nako sa sinabi mo sakin) But still...

Thank you for coming into my life paulo.
Thank you.

Inside a sweet sixteener's heart

2006-04-14T18:23:00.000+09:00

lalalalalalala...

*SURPRISE!!*
regine guevara has updated her blog. :-p

okay... so... why? ... because I need someone to talk to. Before 3 weeks of not being able to talk to my friends, I just have to let it out all at once.

This is not meant to be read by the public because most probably I will just be misunderstood because I wasn't careful about anything I said in here. But if you do mind what prompted me to write in my blog after long months of doing so, then go ahead and thank you. :)

I feel like a deep and huge pool of water.so heavy... yet anytime i could still let out myself and float on the waters that surround me. The clear blue waters that surround my body... as I gradually take my place back to its density... it being a part of my own soul, the own depth i have in me that just continues to flow and take its place. I feel for the deep set ocean. you don't really know what's in its deepest grounds. ...It in itself couldn't even recognize the entirity there is to it. So heavy.. so deep... so huge.. so entire... so vast... so dense. Seemingly free, but still contoured by the crusts of the earth that control its vulnerability. so praised.. so magnified.. yet all it wants are the simple remnants of life it could forever take pleasure on.

It is just what I have always wanted.
The simple cause of my living... of my joy.. of my existence. The blessedness of simplicity that no abrupt change, risked opportunities, demanding circumstances could ever cease to transpire.

All my life I've received and given... the exuperances, and essences alike. I have all that it takes. I know I have all that it takes.

I have all the things in life that I could ever ask for... a good family traced to the extensions and origins, a whole pack of friends of different classifications and interests, the blessing of a bountiful life that has provided me with everything I physically needed and wanted and has brought me to places all over the globe, the gift of leadership and intelligence I could held my head high for to whatever gets my way, the talents I continue to hone and share as I sing my song, play my notes or chords, dance my beat, and act out... my life. I have a body that slims back to normal as soon as I wake-up in the morning from a full stomach. I have my height and other features to boost with my physical attributes. I know that I was raised up to be kind-hearted as well... so beauty there is, inside-out. (sorry this is my blog. :-p)

I am not here to boast, I was just thinking aloud... of indeed... how wonderful my life is already, that I cannot ask for more. What more could I ask for nga ba?

Well.. I dont know ha, pero having a life like mine is not easy.

When you've been provided with all the things you needed to be happy, it just comes to the point where you'd try to ask yourself if all you really have is what you really wanted.

I would be an ingrate indeed if Id say that I did not want all of these that I have.. Hey I enjoyed every speck of achievement and praise I got. But in the end.. At the end of the day, would all these things really matter? Would people actually care if im rich, im smart, im talented, im beautiful, im popular, im responsible, i come from a good family and hell ive got a lot of friends? I dont even think they'd bother to think about it. Well seemingly, for other people topping like me as well, they seem to matter a lot to the world. Ano bang pagkakaiba nila sakin? Ano bang meron sila na wala ako? I only feel appreciated when it's my birthday, our retreat, and during Christmas when everybody starts to be nice. :-p

I want to be happy. I want to be happy for once not for other people, but within me... i want to feel happiness and contentment. MY happiness, this time. MYSELF. What I WANT. i want to do things that would actually matter.

And I wil get what I want.

Someday, somehow.. I know that all my dreams will come true.

I know that in time, God will make me understand the things i dont know. In His time and in His will, things will accord with each other. The Lord is not a selfish God. He does not just plan ahead the life we are to live. He is not that shallow. In fact He is SO MAGNIFICENT. He gives us options... allows us to create our decisions.. and acquire our own interests. If not, what are dreams for? What are prayers for if everything is already fixed?? He just oversees and controls what to give and when to give them so that everything will go accord to the undefinable purpose each of us has for the world. We do not have a selfish God. He does not allow experiences, or at times give them... just for us to learn from them. Everything has a fair purpose. The Lord is a just God. Don't you think it's a bit too unfair for problems to come just for us to learn a lesson we ought to know? LIFE IS NOT JUST ABOUT LEARNING LESSONS. The world is not a classroom.

It brings us back to the start of time, God's ultimate purpose to create man was to share His divine love and the beauty of His creation. With Adam and Eve commiting the first sin, nothing still changes to why man continues to exist. It's not like God wants to continue punishing the human race! When Jesus came, the gates of Heaven were opened and same still goes... it's just that God has completely been open to us again. We are here out of the love and responsibility we share from Above.

Hey it's good friday, it's preaching time. :)

Back to what I was pouring out, I know that things will be better for me. Well, honestly, to you too.. whoever is reading this entry right now. things will definitely get better!

Life is filled with a lot of similar and different things you know. Things that confuse you to where you're really heading for, and things that get you tired of choosing from which road/s to take... Just like,, the things we need, the things we want and the things we get.

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I realized that I couldn't really ask for anything else. I do have everything I could ask for! It's just that, the things I really want are things I CANNOT just ask for.

...things I could not just easily get, nor could God easily grant. They are things I have to work for to earn and understand to get through.

But hey, dont get me wrong, all the things I have now I also WORKED HARD for. ...i had to go through A LOT mind you. =)

I am thankful for everything I have. And I do not question and argue just because I wanted to ask MORE. It's just that, my soul yearns for things I'd say would make my person complete.

as to ... the warmth of loyalty and love is irreplaceable.

But just what do I REALLY want??

Inside my heart, you will find... A simple girl put in the shoes of a queen.

Part 2

2006-01-28T23:21:00.001+09:00

Today and on, I live for no one else.

I used to have lived for everyone then...
But things have changed now...

This is what you've let me become.

A new someone...

It's been a long time since an update, so 2 entries wouldn't be bad enough. I miss an outlet. An outlet of my deep-set emotioons...only I could clearly understand.

I have been pondering on the 2 options: to stay, or to change.
To stay is a risk of not knowing what change means, and a risk of getting into the same mistakes again.
To change is yet a bigger risk, a gamble of one's self to something unknown. A risk of missing the past, and not knowing if it would want you back again when you do so.
A BIG RISK. Yet a risk has to be made. For something to happen....

PLAYING SAFE IS INDIFFERENCE.
I risk because I love you.

And I will risk all that it has to take to prove my love's worth.
Even to risk my love itself....

Sorry to all those I have caused pain, all those I have judged wrongly...those I have troubled and annoyed.

Thank you to all those who gave comfort & showed support, to those who shared their heart and time to mine, to those who never left my life whatever it had to take.

Sorries are never enough. For if it was that easy, the world would be in perfect peace and harmony by now. Pain is a signal for change.

I do not want to get hurt all over again, yet I do not want to pain anyone's asses out.
It can't possibly be back to normal.

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Whatever you've thought of doing in your life, never stray away from the "heart" of things.
Love brought us here, and it is the same reason for our continued existence.
So, always give love a chance...

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I will not care too much. Yet it doesn't mean that i am indifferent enough not to love.
Ako kasi when I don't like something, I will say it and I will change it.
But now, I will just say it and fuckin dont care if something happens or not.
I will start to learn the skill of not caring.

I am not a completely indifferent person. For innate in me, is full faith and hope on the powers of love. Therefore I could never stray away from it completely.

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I have to prepare myself.

I am secured at what I am at right now.I know that I can't be wrong. As I've said, if you want to do something you think will be good for your life, do not let anything stop you from doing it. You have FULL CONTROL. Take charge, and live your life. Regine, don't get affected. Live you life. ATTACHMENT is a mortal sin.

NO TO: Attachement, Commitment, Sentiments, and Emotions.
Live with companionship, responsibility, memories, and feelings.. alone.

Kill the temptors, but FOCUS on your path. Live your life. Have faith in God. Have hope for yourself. Have love for others.

*Pwede yung mga pakialamera tigilan ako. (im not mad, im just saying) If you DONT KNOW WHAT THIS IS ABOUT, and you can't say anything nice, SHUT UP.*

It is always best to:
1) Learn to shut up.
2) Look around you.
3) Forget about some things.
4) Love yourself.
5) DO NOT love others with all your heart.
6) DO NOT give all that you could.
7) NEVER expect what you give.
8) NEVER name a friend as "yours" (it's not "your" friend, it is a friend.)
9) Give up sometimes.
10) Seek for help ONLY to those WHO UNDERSTAND.
***Never tell it to any skeptical, narrow-minded pessimist who will say nothing good about what's happening and will never be a real friend at that.
You know who you are.

Oh, and Im not mad.. Im just saying...
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Why did you have to come into my life?

I know the Lord has His answers...
But all the pain just can't stop me from asking.

Look at me.
Straight in the eye...
And tell me, does it still hurt?

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Moving on.

And tasting,
Bittersweet.

nothing to care about, right?

Happiness.

2006-01-28T08:56:00.000+09:00

Happiness is an innate grace instilled in every living creature. The power manifested is dependent on how much of it you would want to exude, and in what way you would want it to affect your life.

Take hold of the fact that you are here "present" and "living" in this Earth of billions other men. You are not alone. The world, in its 7 rich continents, is filled with mysteries yet undiscovered, so vast that none couldn't even seize to imagine the wonder there is beyond their exploration. So many things happening in every single fraction of LIFE.

>So many people born, so many people dead.
>Mothers giving birth, burial ceremonies taking place.
>A mother caressing her new-born, teaching him/her the expectancies of life.
>A father working for a living, day and night to sustain a famile facing the challenges of each other's tomorrow.
>A child's first brithday, 7th birthday, 10th or 13th, 16th... or none even.
>A promenade to prepare for, once in a lifetime.
>A splendid debut, an extravagant wedding, a special anniversary... or a simple one attended by the closest ones to your heart.
>Lovers at the scene, a romantic dinner, a walk at the bay, a moment shared.
>A break-up.
>An elopement.
>An annulment approved, a family separated.
>A get-together of friends, with their cherished memories of the past.
>A sick person lying in bed at every hospital in every state, in every country.
>A politician facing the troubles of a seat he corrupts with selfish desires or selfless ambitions.
>A student worrying for his/her tuition fee.
>A criminal getting away from the police, yet suffering the same consequence when he dies.
>A convictee suffering a crime he did not commit.
>A kid dying of malnutrition and disease.
>3 kids under the age of 5, dying per second.
>An actress facing the public, his/her audience whom he/she pleases the way they want to be, but goes home as an ordinary human being worrying as much about life.
>And a teenager puffing a cigarette, or even a taste of marijuana.

I could go on and on... And tell you what could happen each day in this incredible LIFE.
PEOPLE LIVING...more than you know.
All these things happen to one's life, and it is imaginable in fact that all of these are happening, as we here go about our lives everyday... thinking nothing but our own selves.

If you are an ordinary person living in this world, most probably than not, you are indeed SELFish. Of course you're but human! But is this what we ought for us humans? To be nonetheless just but human? Couldn't we somehow increase the value there is to us, and go about not being just as how everybody does it. Explore the world there is for you. It wasn't meant for anyone else but us.
So why waste? Why lock-up? Why stay as is?

THINK.

MOVE.

...Students cramming a logical report, working on a stupendous project, listening to an unliked teacher, understanding a difficult lesson, studying for an examination.
While as teenagers, they try new things, have fun, and enjoy life. Partying hard, dancing all night, walking around the mall, window shopping, searching for a crush, watching the latest movie, hanging at Starbucks, attending summer lessons, learning new skills, laughing out loud, and doing superbly almost anything they could to spend time they wish to.
As human beings, we build relationships, in the form of acquaintances, hi-hello friends, prospects, crushes, good friends, civil companions, hard-earned friends, barkadas, bestfriends...and so on and so forth. enemies and even not-in-good-terms people we also meet.

We experience all these. And it is through these experiences that we know how it is to live. To live having discovered the real meaning of life, and having brought out the real essence yourself has to give... With life and yourself leaving you with options and decisions to make, you create a living perspective you'd mark yourself on. To make a mark that would stand for yourself. To produce a self in accord to the will of your Creator, for His greater glory... and for your own happiness and goodness, and the wellness of the others around you. You affect people, more than you know you do. Remember, you are not alone.
This is not YOUR world. This is OUR WORLD.
We share it in union as a people. We meet people, and we find here an opporunity to know what is more to life.

Meeting people, we see different characters, different values... we meet different hearts, different souls... we hear different songs, different stories. We learn to adjust, and adapt to something not only limited to our own selves. RELATIONSHIPS. In the process, we know ourselves more... our capacity to understand, share, and CONNECT. We find out our weaknesses and extent of understanding, sharing and connecting. People need each other in this pathway of life. You are not alone. Yet you can never depend on anyone, unless you are strong enough to get hurt... all over again.

Life is here. Life is present. Life is you. Life is the people around you. Life is US. We are the gifts of life, among many, but still chosen to a mission we ought to do on Earth, and to be judged at the end of our journey with what we have done with it. The Lord knows His people. He knows whom He has sent. He knows us all. But we would never exactly know why and how we are here, and we will be in the future. We shouldn't question, because we possibly just can't. FAITH. All we have to do is to go on believing, and trusting, and doing what we ought and want to do. HOPE. In its end, all still boil down to nothing else but the mere foundation of our being. ...what brought us here is LOVE and love it is that will make us coninue living.
Let us not forget these main virutes in whatever paths we may take, in each of our own journeys dear friends.

I love you, I love myself, I love the other people around me, I love my family, I LOVE THE LORD. And that's just about it that I have to say... I think I can live a peaceful and happy life now that I am clear of everything I have to change, quit, stop, erase, retain, regain, relive, and continue... I wish all of you may too. It is important to live knowing what, why, where, when and how. Even the most impossible things can be made true knowing yourself and the life you want to live. And I won't let anything come my way for acheiving what I want for myself.

My vision is clear...

I have none to be attached to, I have none to be commited to, I have none to expect from, I have none to depend on.
I have none to worry. I have myself, I have my God.

Let's see what else I could still have to be happy...

'06 Starters

2006-01-01T12:15:00.000+09:00

wuhoo 2-0-0-6!!

just have i remembered experiencing new year's eve last year...how time flies...
now i have a new set of resolutions, and dreams.
dreams of fulfilling my resolutions and of getting my dreams. whoo.
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the inner self of Regine Guevara...

the tapestry of time is a constant sense instilled in every essense of being.
unthinkable... yet somehow, somewhere... taking hold of it is but a grasphold away.
so easy to do.. but so difficult to say. unnaturally...
the show don't tell is a fraction of the reality life has exuded upon. and its depth that lies just within yourself.
is building up and taking it from there so difficult to do?

just as i am not coming across for it is only me who pictures the reality my world has to offer...
now i know why people cannot understand each other's thought...our own souls who in its dimensions travel amongst itself have but itself to accommodate in the spacious sense of time.

what a reality realized at the end of another year whose abrupt changes and indomitable twists are but great challenges yet left to be marks to look back upon.

keeping your mind intact and juicing out all the essences is the key to this perfection of weaving the tapestry... the tapestry of time.. the tapestry of your life.

The New Tide is among those challenges yet to face and the ambition to conquer your fears is a mere mirror of the esssence exuding in you. The reflection of yourself along with that of others around you affects your visible perception of life and your stability in the society you live in.

Know yourself. Love it. And live it.

The only way to getting through...

good luck.
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Talking more outer Regine Guevara...

I do not believe that there shouldn't be balance in one's life. THAT IS CRAP!
Use your brain please.
And let it come along your assets...

We students have all the right to live a healthy life not minding what others have to say about what we want to do with it.

Healthy Life= What we want, what we need.

We are not nailed to our academic lives because that concept is mere STUPIDITY.
There are other aspects in our lives which have to nurture. It is not a matter of age!
We are people! And as so, it doesn't scrap us from the yearn for other things...
Don't be stupid guys!

There is a bigger world apart from our chairs and blackboards in our classrooms.

Family, friends, self.

Particularly... we have our social lives to fulfill. Don't forget about that. Don't be stupid.

PLEASE. Don't be stupid.

Wrong Point 1: We have a long way to go for our social lives. Tatanda pa tayo, may oras pa. (?)
My Say: WhAT ThE fRieCking heLL?

How sure are you that you won't die the next minute of your life?

And making it sound less morbid, let's just take it into mind...
that the quality of your next month, or next year is NOT AN ASSURANCE.

Wouldn't you be such a looser if you died not being able to have a fun of your lives? Of your teeanage at that?
HIGHSCHOOL SHOULD BE THE BEST PART OF YOUR LIFE, DUDE!

And even if you won't die right away, still High School should be the most thrilling and exciting snapshot of your younger days.

What if you get sick and uncapable of all the fun there in the world?
Will you be able to party out loud and go drinking and just having fun at age 40?

God you've already got a family by then!! And A JOB.
Working is just at par with schooling btw.
And so actually making your after-school life MORE HECTIC even.
See?!

Having so... you won't have any opportunity to get alife at all...

tsk.tsk..wawa ka naman..

Wrong Point #2:Concentrate on your studies so scrap everything out. (?)
My Say: As I've said schooling is not everything...

Yes IT IS IMPORTANT. And I AM NOT telling you to go about your lives and leave the school part behind.

But there is A BIGGER WORLD than our school.
So you shouldn't dig your head into its pits alone.

I mean you won't die if you miss a fraction of perfection in school, and give time for having fun with other people?

If you come to think of it, you can't bring ALL of school in the bigger part of your life which is the the after-school.

The experiences you've missed, and friends left to gain are greater losses.

Confidence, self-esteem, street-wisdom are things you cannot gain from studying books but in experiences you let yourself engage in. Believe me.

BALANCE IS THE KEY.

Wrong Point # 3: Balance is really impossible! (?)

My Say: NOT. ?!

duh anong tawag sakin?
yuck ang yabang... pero really now,, i am proud of myself because i know how to get a grip of succes and fun of myself.

just to give you a picture:

1) I definitely go out every week during school time.

(it's either i have a party, a gimmick...shopping/parlor with mom...or at least lunch and movie with my family)

*Chillax time yan dudes.

2) I party out everytime. As in everytime there is one.

3) I do go out even during school days

*with my mom, no doubt. pero with friends, in cases talaga I cannot miss, kahit may pasok pa next day.

(concerts, admu-dlsu games, premier of movies)

4) I also go out during exam week.

*Habitually relaxing at starbucks and window shopping after every exam day

Or... Watch a movie with a friend as lakwatsera as I am. =))

and I mean "exam week"' dudes...

you have to chill, baka pumutok ulo niyo sa kaka-aral.

I mean, you don't have to copy exactly how I do it.. kasi baka hindi niyo rin makaya yung pressure... sanay na kasi ako sa pressure because I've exposed myself to a lot of pressuring things... And they suck but they did give me some heck of good finds.

Just like with ca and claret, nanonood kami ng Shark's Tale after our Math exam, tapos History Exam pa the next day... Late nga lang ako natulog.

Or maaga rather dahil umaga na yun. Hahaha..

...dinadaan yan sa KAPE dudes.

at higit sa lahat, MARAMING TULOG pag weekends.

me...gawin ang HWs ng friday... kung may lakad pa, edi matulog ng late! tapos, matulog na marami pag saturday... pag gising, gumawa ng projects kung meron.. kung may lakad, edi sunday gawin... make sure to do it when you said you would. hindi rin naman kasi pwedeng friday, saturday, sunday may lakad ka. although ginagawa ko yun, pero i make it a point na i have finished everyhing else weeks or days before. tapos.

I make a schedule too... Look at mine, it's so me~ so messy! hahaha....

As in pag may projects day by day pinaplan ko na kung anong gagawin ko para ayos.

Maximize time when you run out of it (which is so normal). As in kung hanggang canteen dala-dala mo ntbk mo. Or paakyat sa stairs early in the morning... Sa kotse... Sa room pag boring... Ako matindi~ habang naliligo at nagbibihis pa minsan! Or pag hindi ako makatulog, nagrereview ako sa utak ko while on bed. hahaha!

*Do not do anything you will regret. Oo sabi ko nga school is not everything. Pero it is important. At achievement mo yun at dignidad mo yun noh. And it opens you to horizons, bringing you out of that closed mind all of us start to be in. So, stick to your plans and goals come what may.

There...

KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO BE, and HOW YOU WANT TO LIVE YOUR LIFE.

AND LIVE BY IT.

Be happy.

Love and love and love and love and love.......

Be patient and kind.

"In the end, it's between God and you anyway..." -Mo. Teresa

The child in me

2005-12-03T14:45:00.000+09:00

My dearest blog...
My ultimate outlet....

I am a person of innate capacity to express what i absolutely feel...
to expose the inner depths of me, and bring out the soul inside me.

with no restrictions...
and absolute pretensions...

Plainly laid-out.
'hating complications.

As is.

I live my life going with the flow
for i cannot live alone.

I need family and friends.
I need my motivation and inspiration.
I am still a baby crying for support and attention.

For in these I find the protection from the big world around me.
Its cruelty and difficulty.

...for my highest aims to fulifill.
Help me to achieve them still.

I dont need your upsetters and downers
I dont need insecurities and backfalls
I dont need those kinds of people
Who do not help me grow up
from this weak creature ...still clinging to me.
Stay away from me and stop from making me cry

I am but a child.
Just a child... Please!
Set me free!
Just a child...
Still a child.

I am still like that weak baby...
I smile for the smallest things.
And thank the whole world for what I have at hand
Seeming though that I've never had.

I take what you give me...
And make it mine.
That smile on my face is all that lies within your hands reach.

Do not show me any affection you are not willing to make true.
I will never forgive you.
Do not offer anything you cannot completely give
I may never again receive.
Do not take back what you have already given
I will have all the tantrums hidden.

Do not do me good just to get that smile from me, and leave me behind when you've had what you want

"Friendship is a sweet responsibility,never an opporunity"-kahlil gibran

Do not take that responsibility if you are not willing to sustain it till the end

I will just cry for your loss, and the pain you've caused which could never be mend.
That smile which could never be lend again anymore.

I easily smile. I easily cry.
I easily befriend. I easily get angry.
I easily get offended. I easily forget.
I easily forget forgiving.
I easily say yes. I easily sort out.
I easily have faith. I easily loose hope.
I easily love. I easily fall out.

I easily absorb all that I see.
I easily get used to things empathetically~

That is why I die easily...
when the world has changed but me.

Please don't do anything you won't hold truth to.
For I won't be able to take it~
when not only it, but you who's lost too.

i need to find myself. *
i need to know myself. *
i need to love myself.

i spent much of my time travailing for success that i lost myself already.
i spent much of my time looking at other people that i don't know myself anymore.
i spent much of my time for the those that i love, even if i have none left for myself almost.

i need to be strong for myself.
i need to fight for myself.

i need to be myself.

not the baby.
not just the mommy.
not the simple girl.
not just the princess.

BUT ME.

I pray my friends will stick by me...
I need to walk alone. But I need them by my side.

I hope life will accord to me.

I wish the world will be back to normal. =)

i am growing up... fast.

2005-11-26T14:47:00.000+09:00

we have finally met yolanda.
amen,
in fact we were in awe of her life.
she was just earning a six digit number if cut off to 25% even...
wow the figures.

and that kind of life is my standard.
it's not an impossible dream.
if she not even a chairman owning the corporation herself as my dad who has brought me up so had done it...
all i could say is~
i have lived to be a princess and i will grow-up to be a queen.

sorry na....

i'm studying well in st. paul pasig.
i will study more in ateneo de manila university.
and i will take-up BS Psychology.
i will pursue a master's and phD degree in the same school,
or perhaps in the US. ..just like my cousin isset who has done it all yet is living her life with a handsome rich korean husband, and having all the beauty and charm there is in her. idol!

good enough...my post has started not to be dramatic as usual.. enough... yet.

with last Friday, i suddenly realized that i really am growing-up already.
and i mean growing-up really.
really.

TIME IS SO PRECIOUS . YET IS SO UNCONTROLABLE.

But tell you what, it is manageable.

You can make the best out of time.

It is up to you.

"It is not a matter of being a significant person, it is making your life significant ."

o my God. i am near to half of my High School life.
and with another half of it,
booog.
i'm in dreadful college.
dreadful real life.

o crap.

trisha's right... high school is short... there is no time to waste.

the best part of your life is high school.well i haven't got a love life yet. haha.
and then, the best part of high school are your friends.
love all of you. :)

i guess the best solution for now is to just enjoy life. enjoy teenage. enjoy growing-up.enjoy being old. weh. yuck. nno.

most of the time if not always, that is what i have been doing. enjoying life. having fun. trying new things.feeling with the music. getting into the jive.
~partying everytime
~gimimicking most of the time
~shopping all of the time
~watching all that is good
~eating all kinds of food
~drinking as soon as i entered teen-hood
checklist:
red wine /
white wine /
-by the glass. may dry at sweet dito.
champagne /
-as a jello..masarap talaga ito.
rum /
-as a punch..pero tinalaban parin ako.
vodka /
- as a punch.. wala lang ito.
san mig light /
cruiser /
-by the bottle..pero nagkaka-allergies ako.
cali shandy give me some icy-s /
~cutie niya noh
yan ang experiences ko so far. abangan ang susunod na kabanata...

weh.

the bottom line is, ALCOHOL IS NOT BAD.
As long as you know yourself, and you willl control yourself.

i feel so wasted in this entry... it has no real purpose in my life. and no significance in the world. but that is what just came out. i am bored to death no doubt. for it has been another big week. and i am currently oh so sick. but do not fret, i will get well soon. for all my tasks like gettng the moon. i have to audition for surpanakha and flerida, as i emote with my one only aladin and rama. and also mia who's lakshmana. get ready for my bro ravana. hi to florante and laura.

this is such a misplaced entry. surely.

But then I also found someone else's mind, and I just remembered how emotions revolve around lovingly.
The world is such a big place to be. And there are yet a lot more people there before i could even ponder on their existence. Yet we we were able to come across each other's sail. And that's nothing less than being great.
It is such a wonder how you meet your friends... And meet them in a magnificent instance. Taking a valuable part of your life as theirs. And everything follows through...
*Thank God for my friends.*
Sometimes they're there, sometimes they're not.
*Thank God for my true friends*
For all the times they've sticked it out with me.

Oh life... how constant... even "friends", vary...

Do not underestimate the powers that you have..
for you do so great...you just don't know.

You are indefatigable, and so indomitable.
You are not only an astounding person
Who has such a stupefying character,
You are definitely a beautiful soul
Sent to keep others not to fall
You continue to make me and other weak souls~
Just but whole.

Beautiful Soul...
~Jesse Mc Cartney

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste I
want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul.

You are a lot. You bring a lot.
To my life, at that.
I know that there is more to you
In fact, I wish i were you.

I want a blackforest cake now!

feeling inside....

2005-11-21T19:29:00.000+09:00

Life is a journey. And as man, we are tasked to complete our own.

There are ropes that bind each one of us together. ..building relationships and strengthening ties...

Just like travelers, we are set to our own lands and we take our own positions.
We have our own destinations.

Yet no matter where our voyage brings us...
.... and how far it takes us apart,

the rope will always be there...

and as long as we hold on tight to that rope, we will always come across each other's sail.

Be yours a ship, and mine a raft.
...yours a speedboat, and mine an aircraft.
...Or yours a train, and mine a simple car.

Take peace in the fact that you just have to keep on holding on,
come what may.
For with me,
you have nothing to worry...

I will hold on to it till my dying day.

At times I may rest my hands when my palms become sweaty and my muscles strained,
but I will tie it tightly close to me, that it may never stray away from my side..
And after a short time that I'm ready to hold on to it myself again,
Expect a stronger grip and a lasting hold.

Do not fret when I fail to catch-up with you because I just couldn't find my way to you through the rope,
or I simply do not want to follow you through, for the moment.
As much as I want us to walk together and face our struggles together,
our journey was made for us to accomplish ourselves, and I have always had that in my mind.

I have big dreams for myself.
Then you came along and made a big difference in my life.
We met with an old friend and started a new cruise together.
Yet I have my own travel to pursue.

I'm confused.
I don't know what to do.

I need time and space.

I need space for myself. for my life.for my journey.
for our friendship. for our cruise.

That next time we may sail again, it would be a much prepared and complete one...
...a more functional and stronger one...

Set me free for a moment...
That I may find myself and what is to me.

I have to start setting my own sail again.
Before I join a cruise with you.

I cannot fail.

I want my dreams back.

Yet I don't want to loose you.

As promised, the rope will always be there. I just need some space. That's all.
It's just tied close to me. So expect that when I finish fixing things,
I will get back to our rope first and foremost.

For it still remains,

that I will never let it go... till my dying day.

"If God be with us, who can go against us?"

Love is patient. Love is kind. Love does not envy and boast. It is not conceited nor proud.
Love does not insist on its own way.It is not irritable nor resentful. It does not rejoice at the wrong, but rejoices in the truth.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things.

Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it too will pass away.
For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect; but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.

So faith, hope, love...abide these 3. But the greatest of these is love.
Corinthians13:1-13

mga aralin 101

2005-11-19T16:30:00.000+09:00

i suddenly realized how dramatic and emotional my posts have been.
haha. o well...
i guess i was really born to be one of the mushiest people in the world.
...those who live their lives in sentiments.

don't worry...i have my moods... i'm not always the exact same person every day. (hala...baliw?)

today...
i feel like compiling all my realizations in life. that way, i won't forget them anymore. and stop commiting the same mistakes all over again.
yup, i want to be the best person i can be, so that i can change the world. ...hanep.
but now, i'm practically just enjoying my life...
actually, i've just read this new psychology book i bought for myself. "Psychology". haha. right... so thick!!! and i've started with 3/4 of the first chapter.

hey i'm not a nerd if that's what you think.
excuse me get a life.

haha.

right... so here goes my aralin 101: ;)
...words to live by...

1) Love God above all.

2) Love your neighbor as you love yourself.

3) "Faith is to believe what you do not see. And the reward of that faith is to see what you believe."

4) You make your life.
But the Lord's will is the Lord's will.

5) Everything happens for a definite reason.

6) Nothing beats prayer and will power.

7) A smile always makes a difference.

8) Not lighting your flame won't change the world.

9) Opportunities have expiration dates.

10) Impossible is nothing.

11) Reality is, there are things you cannot change.

12) Every rule has an exception.

13) The lighter you are, the higher you fly.

14) Let love for learning outweigh fear of failing.

15) Things change a lot.
Sometimes, you just have to go with the flow.

16) People change more often than they'd seem to.
PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE.

17) Distance of the heart is the farthest distance.
So keep up with each one's hearts.

18) God will give all that is right and just.

19) He has His own time and ways.

20) Don't grow old. Grow you.

21) Nobody's perfect.

22) Though there is such a thing as perfection. So, still strive to be perfect.

23) Living in the past will leave you behind.

24) Everyone is entitled to her own happy ending. You are just tasked to pick which fairytale to be in.

25) True love is always worth fighting for.

26) "Friendship is a sweet responsibility, never an opportunity"

27) When we talk about our hearts, it's not about that fist-sized organ in your body, it's an invisible force graced to every man, a power strong enough to accomodate the whole world.

28) Love is to love for the sake of love, and not for the love there is to return.

29) People come and go as easy as memories can be chiseled in each one's life.

30) Pushing things too hard will even make them unreachable to you.

31) "A failure is someone who quits or gives up. The succesful person keeps trying many solutions until the right one works."

32) Some things just can't go our way. Though there are times that they really do.

33) Life is fair, because God is fair.

34) "Too little knowledge is dangerous. But too much knowledge is more dangerous. For it stops you from seeing the heart of things."

35) "The greatest glory a man could ever have is not in never loosing, but in rising everytime he falls."

36) Opportunities don't always take the form of luck for them to just come. Nor are they always in the form of a gift, to be always given. Sometimes, you have to make them yourself, when they are nowhere to be found.

37) Rest if you must but don't you quit.

38) "Everything is okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not yet the end. "

39) "Yes, time flies, but we are the navigators. More important than counting time is making time count."

40) The world is round, and as long as it still turns, there will always be night and day.

41) The world is huge. It can never really be on your shoulders.

42) There are a lot more people suffering than you do.

43) 3 kids die per second.

44) God does things for us to realize our mistakes. So learn from each difficulty. For God won't let anything come to us that we cannot handle.

45) Nothing is sure in this world. (Only God)

46) God never closes His door for us, and so should we not close ours to others.

47) There is nothing more fulfilling than to forgive and be forgiven.

48) Insecure people scoff a lot.

49) Nobody has a right to look down on anyone. It's either you help them, or just shut up.

50) A mirror is one of the best tools needed in this world.

51) In life, the Lord is the producer, and you are the director. He is the scriptwriter, and you are His assistant.

52) Don't ask for a seocnd opinion. Ask for a fourth, and fifth.

53) God is so good. And what's good He will give.

54) Take life by the hand, and dance.

55) Don't stress yourself.

56) Love life.

57) Live life.

58) Continue dreaming.

59) Keep on working.

60) Fly.

61) Fall.

62) Fly again.

63) Soar.

64) Be human.

65) Keep yourself busy...

66) But rest from time to time.

67) Hone your talents.

68) Learn new skills.

69) Make new friends.

70) Keep old ones.

71) Sing your song.

72) Play your game.

73) Dance to the beat.

74) And feel the vibe. :))

75) Laugh aloud. =))

76) Smile more. :D

77) Don't forget to cry as well. :((

78) But then smile again. :)

79) It's all part of life.

80) Just be yourself.

81) And get a life.

82) Rememeber: It's YOUR life.

83) and ofcourse, you owe it to God.

84) So Pray.

85) Pray for peace.

86) Pray for good health, and loads of wealth. :D

87) Pray for your goals and dreams.

88) Pray for your blessings and gifts.

89) Pray for your sins.

90) Pray for your loved ones, and hated ones.

91) Pray for the world.

92) Be happy.

93) Be strong.

94) Hope high.

95) Have faith.

96) Have love.
*Keep in mind what Paul wrote in Corinthians: "Faith, hope, love... abide these 3... and the greatest of these is love."

97) "Be like a queen. For a queen is never afraid to fail. Failure is just a stepping stone to success." -Oprah

98) Believe in the power of butterflies, for they can make you see the other phase of the Earth.
yeh.

99) Life is beautiful. :)

100) And the world is such a wonderful place to be.

101) But do not forget.... that in the end,

"...it's between you and God ayway." -Mother Teresa
;)

Love After-effect

2005-11-12T02:41:00.000+09:00

continuation....
Thanks friends. You sustain me.

Thank You Lord for Kachupoy... for in it I found a secure place of strength to draw from
Thank You Lord for dom and kat... for in them I found 2 people who I actually treat as my children, loving them as though they really are...and feeling at the same time, their love as though I truly am there mother. drama.
Thank You Lord for my Baliw Family... for in them I found something to hold on tight to
Thank You Lord for the Ichys... for in them I found a sure barkada to belong and trust my life to
Thank You Lord for the Dudes... for in them I found the truest of my friends, who know me best
Thank You Lord for the 4 towers... for in them I found not only the same height to compliment mine, but great friends to compliment my life.
Thank You Lord for Siete-Tres... for in them I found a good source of strength during the hardest times of my life, and I met the special friends in my life I have now.
Thank You Lord for Wanpayb... for in them I found family... Sabay-sabay nating ginapos ang ating mga sarili sa unang taon natin sa High School. Kaya't napaka-importante ninyo sa akin. Thanks at hindi kayo nakakalimot.
iris, rean- i miss you too!
juela- salamat sa friendship.
amelia,tanya,connie- talagang hindi nakakalimot.
Thank You Lord for Tsu Tsibin... for they make my second year. People say that being a sophomore is not at all fun because it's like a crucial transitory stage every batch has to pass through. But with Tsu Tsubin, never mind what else is in being a sophomore. For being a sophomore, is being with Tsu Tsibin.
>I love you guys! Sorry kung makulit ako minsan at masungit. Basta seryoso ako sa pagsabing khet may moods man ako, the fact will never change that I really love you all!
Thank You Lord for my other friends... particularly Room 1 for being so nice to me, and for having most of them as my friends. Also with Room 8 & 9 which has a big number of my friends in it.
Thank You Lord for my party friends... Party friends kasi I always see you in parties eh. hehe.
Especially....
sof n.- thanks for the very dependable friendship
juice and raia- thanks for being nice to me
abby- i love you.
patty- thanks for always being there
alay- thanks for the frienship
nike- i will always fight for you.
Thank You Lord to the Math-DD Class... 2 more years of fun and TRUST with you guys...
Thank You Lord to the BIO-DD Class... for letting them coach me in answering Ms. Mortel's questions. haha! And for the friendship as well.
Thank You Lord for my officers.
KYLA- you are such a blessing to me. and to other people as well. i don't know if i can repay you but i will so try! i''m just here...thanks you so much!
MARA- i never regret the day you became my aca chair, i wouln't want anyone else. you are much appreciated as a leader, person, and good friend. love you!
LIA- i've shared a lot of the best times of my life with you and i'm looking forward for more. i really value our friendship. i hope same goes with you.
YVES- you remain to be the most appreciated friend i ever had. sobrang salamat for sticking by me nung gravity days, and althroughout my life as well. you mean a lot.
TRISHA-i'm done with you. but i just want to let you know na lahat ng nasabi ko eh sobrang totoo... no exaggerations... though at times i'm really in the mood to joke you around and make you feel annoyed, it's nothing at all compared to the real sentiments i have for our friendship, those of which you already know.
TARA- you just don't know but i really treat you as one of the special friends of mine. you and patti really make my day. as in mapa-tawa o mapa-serious. sobrang maaasahan ka rin. wag kang mag-atubiling lumapit kung may kailangan ka. i'm always here for you.
VICKY- i'm so happy that we became classmates 'coz it gave us a chance to catch up with each other. You are among the people I've been friends with for so long already, that though we don't really hang-out often and there were years of slight dettachment, I know that no matter what happens the friendship will always be there. And I am assuring that to you. I'm always here to fight for you girl.
THEA- you are among the greatest reasons why I regret asking for block last year. Not that I don't love wanpayb anymore, but because it would be such a loss if I didn't meet you through 2-7, and have you as a friend. This is the first time I met you that's why I'm really glad. I really value our friendship . Thanks for being trustworthy.
APE- tapos na. yup, bestfriend. hindi rin ako masyado mushy dun noh? ...bsta it's weird that I get to spend more time with my other friends than you, and they know more things about me faster than you, and I feel more open to some than you, and you don't seem to be interested with the things that interest me. vice versa. But no matter what these account to, No more could those people be my best friend than you.

Thank You Lord for my older friends, for in them I find Your voice as the elder siblings I've always wanted to have. You know who you are.
Thank You Lord for my younger friends, for in them I also learn a lot and live a lot. (ahe.) Especially for having Meryl as my kapatid and Fiona as my little sister. Thank you also to all my mb and piat officers before, I couldn't have survived MB without you guys. love ko parin kayo. salamat at nde kayo nakakalimot. ;)

Even if I made it into groups I just have to mention...
MIA- alam mo na how much i love you, and that will never change. let's not fight anymore okay?
haha. though those are part of friendship. i 've always believed in you, believe me now. haha.
KARLA- i love you. i care for you. i appreciate you. i miss you. i will fight for you.
DENISE- thank you so much for being my friend. our friendship means a lot to me. not only because you are a good friend, but simply because i love you so.
MARIEL- salamat sa mga anino. thanks for helping me out and being nice to me.thanks for the compliments. thanks for appreciating me. thanks pag sinasalo moko! thanks for the friendship. love you mariel!
IANAH- sobrang mahalaga yung pagkakaibigan natin saken. drama. haha. pero totoo! promise. thank you for trusting me and keeping my trust. thank you for always being there. thank you for all the love and care.
JAY-JAY- all i could say is that i love you and i'll always be here for you. mark my word.
ANN- salamat sa friendship. matagal-tagal narin tayong magkaibigan. at alam kong tatagal pa to. You're one of my most treasured friends, anne, and i'm always here for anything at all. Thanks for trusting me.
NANNIE- for all the ym sessions... thanks for all the help. ;)
JENNY- for the mutual trust we share. hayaan mo ur secret is safe with me. and i know it is with you too.
PAULA- for being readily available. hehe. mapa-canteen o adobe assistance. :)
All my other classmates... next time iisa-isahin ko kayo...
ANGE- i'm always here for you friend, lagi naman.
TERE- i'm so happy to have you as a friend upto now
KIMMY-hindi ako nangangampanya ah . thanks for the friendship.
CLARET- thanks for keeping it up with me upto now
MARA- thanks for being such a good friend
KATHY- thanks for everything! i love you.
CA- thanks for all the times.
LIANNE- i really value our friendship. nagkakasundo kasi tayo birthdaymate.
CELS- thanks for being there whenever i need a friend.
SOF U- thanks for being a very nice friend.
IRA- thank you for being a part of my life.
ERIKA- thanks for the friendship, at di ka nakakalimot.
BB- thanks for helping me out with my birthday, and for the friendship as well.
PAM- ultimate partner, i love you!!! aawayin ko kung sino man ang magpa-iyak sa'yo
AGAT D.-thanks for earning my trust.
LEXI- thanks for being there.
MEWA- thanks for still being my friend.
BIANKY-thanks for always cheering me up
NICKAY- thanks for being a good friend.
KAT L.- thanks for being you. and for the being a great friend.
ANA- thanks for trusting me.
MIAN- hindi pa kita nakaklimutan. love you still.
KRISSY- i love you paren.
AYU- thanks for all the hugs.

You-for taking time to visit my blog and reat this entry.
ALL MY FRIENDS- kasama kayo lahat dito.

I don't want to name specific names anymore...because the tendency is that I'd be mentioning all my friends nalang. Ang dami na nga nito... Basta halos lahat ng lumabas sa utak ko na gusto ko pasalamatan sinama ko na. And it's already 3am, I came from rizza's party... So i just named those I still can. I have to sleep na.. I still feel tipsy pa naman 'coz I drank...

The point is: Let the people you love know how much they mean to you. It doesn't hurt to thank them from time to time, for being a part of your life and for making it a more livable one. That way, you do not only take time to realize their importance for you, but you let them know that their love for you is much appreciated. Then love comes back. And back. And back. .... a never-ending relationship.

It doesn't have to be the end of the school year.

Why wait?

Make a difference.
Things are most meaningful if you do it apart from when most poeple are doing it.
Reality is, NOW.

So love now. And let love show you everything.
In that way, love won't be such a hard thing after all.

pLainstakingly involved.

2005-11-10T18:59:00.001+09:00

I am feeling so full right now.

There are a lot of things in my head...a lot of feelings and emotions...thoughts and desires...
All painstakingly traveling my head in random motions...Not knowing where they will go... and what will become of them...They're just there... playing around.

heartaches.
pain.
regrets.
confusion.
intimidation.
annoyance.
relief.
love.
hope.
care.
understanding.
uneasiness.
joy.
eagerness.
dreams.
faults.
failures.
satisfaction.
faith.
appreciation.
friendship.
trust.
romance.
infatuation.
relationships.
memories.
laughter.
fun.
excitement.
fear.
success.
grades.
talents.
esteem.
people.
society.
health.
wealth.
future.
past.
present.
religion.
GOD.

Each one randomly gasping for space and time....

So many things... So many people... Such a big world... Such a complicated life.

All I know for sure is that there is God ...in the thoughts I reflect, and emotions I percept... and with Him, faith, hope and love abide.

..."So faith, hope, love, abide these 3; but the greatest of these is love." -ICorinthians13:13

And so as man, and likened to God... I have been endowed to love in my life on Earth.
And now, I love.
And I love a lot.
And I love a lot than there is to fill my fist-sized heart.
More than my brain can accomodate all the things that esteems it.
Yes, I do love a lot.
I love a lot of people.
And I love a lot these people.
Sometimes I don't end up getting the love back.
Oftentimes to put it straight.
But it doesn't matter.
For love is to love for the sake of love,
and not for the love there is to return.
And so, I could say, that I really love.
And I love so much...
to so many...
No matter how much there is to return.
For love is irreplacable.
It is immeasurable.
Among the real treasures of life.
And that is why loving is easy.
I, for one, can love anyone.
Just anyone I connect to.
Amongst the indifference of human nature
Love always prevails in the end.
Love is as simple...as dominant.
Yet it obeys nothing.
And so dear people
Do not be afraid to love...
As I have involved the inner depths of my soul...
Love is a gift no other value can replace-
It is a power no other person can take away-
For, it is a special state of being,
the Lord Himself endures.

PEOPLE OF THE WORLD LIVE YOUR LIVES WITH LOVING.

I love You back Lord.

In You, I love the love you have sent with me on Earth...
And that especially includes my friends...

I love my friends.
I love my friends so much that I'd do anything not to loose them.
They sustain me.

Your life happens once and it won't hurt to let the important people in your lives know how much they mean to you.
Kayo rin, baka mawala sila sa'yo.

Thank you so much trisha ...
Trisha-poy ko, love ko to.
My soul could've died again, if you didn't come into the my life again. I'm so happy that our friendship has reached this level. And i feel that my life was such a big loss for loosing the tightness for a short while. Thanks for showing me that the rope is long enough, and for inspiring me that flying is not an impossible way to reach the other side of the earth.

I love you mia.
Mama chu is the chu-chu train that speeds-up my wrong games.
Thanks for making me a better person. Thanks for always showing me how to look outside the box, but still supporting me whenever I stress my mind analyzing so much what's inside it. Thanks for making me look at life at a wider perspective, because through all these, you made me realize the that the value of things is not dependent on its complexity, but on the simple heart it has in it. Thanks for still being a big part of my life.

You make me whole bestfriend.
Every person needs others to complete the imperfect fragments in her life. Among all those, you might not have the biggest knowledge on my life, nor the greatest number of times spent. In fact, you hold all those together. You hold the shards of my life, and bring it to its completeness. I couldn't have been a total person if not for you. Thanks for complimenting me.

More to come..

Great.

2005-11-08T18:05:00.001+09:00

Great.
Great.
Great.

I made this beautiful, well-prepared, hard-worked, heart-felt, VERY LONG entry that sums up my stupenduous sembreak, and now it's gone.

Really Great.

Lord, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
and Wisdom to know the difference.

You Set Me Free
(This is for you Lord)
It's been a long time since I sang a tune
I didn't have a melody but now I've got You
You're in my mind. You've filled my heart
I made this song for you
You're in my life. You make it right
My dreams come true with you
I've never sang what's in my soul
But in You I found the reason to sing this song...

You set me free....
from my pains and miseries...
You set me free...
from my doubts and my worries...
You set me free...
to my insecurities...
You set me free...
from the fears that haunted me.

(still working on it)

Every speck of magnificence boils down to You, Lord. I offer everything to You. Set me Free from this misery pls.

2005-10-31T10:19:00.000+09:00

just checkin' it out...

hey...

2005-10-30T22:09:00.000+09:00

whew. am i actually the last one to get a blog? no i'm not. hindi kaya! o well...i started this out because feeling ko i really need an outlet, apart from the usual bugging of friends everyday... similarly, my multiply http://reguev.multiply.com... just as hundreds of pictures of people have already been uploaded, i have just started. haha. eh at least i already have one. hehe.

now i need the help of lia to layout this shit. i don't know how to go about this crap! how the hell do i keep out of this boring page i'm typing on right now! o well..i guess i have to manage to survive.. lagi naman eh...

this is gonna be a long conversation, friends...

wag niyong tulugan first entry ko ah!

i bet mia's going to be so amazed again after so many times they have been bugging me why i don't have one yet...oo na napagiiwanan nako! the only problem then was~ this... the first entry. i thought i'd be too tired to make the first so i just didnt make anything at all.. haha.
~simply regine~

so what's with my life...

o crap i can't tell my whole life that this blog has missed! that'd be so not simple!

wrong start.

ok moving on...

Simply Regine. ...Regine is spanish for queen...and my cl teacher tells me i truly am one (i dunno with her)... mother side relatives name call me a princess...though in my father's side, i was actually brought up like one, as the youngest girl of the clan...and that's a typical clan of shall i say aristocracy and all?... perhaps there are moments of being spoiled..but never that of a bratt...so i'm not a spoiled bratt. coz i'm just spoiled. but not a bratt. ;). because for that minimal spoiling, came along discipline.

With this ...not very many people think that i'm just any ordinary person living the natural human instinct of survival...

Actually,, I AM just that simple girl...

...living my dreams...

...playing around...

...taking a walk...

...finding myself...

... dancing to the beat...

... singing my tune...

... playing my music...

...loving my life, ;)

i dream. i play. i sing. i pray. i laugh aloud. and talk louder. i'm silent, and reserved. i keep myself to myself. i have friends. i make new ones. i love to have fun. i party. i gimmick. i study. i get sick. i fly. and soar high. often i do cry. my tears fall. though within is more. i sob. i fall in love. i get angry. annoyed. offended. paranoid. i think. i study. i learn. i earn. i get stubborn and bored. though luck is in-born. ;). i believe. i achieve. criticisms i receive. (oh gad,, immunity?) i succeed. i fail. i get up and not stop.i'm good. i''m great. i feel good. i feel great. i feel loved. i feel hated. yes i feel all those... i feel i'm no one. i want to be someone...i feel useless. i feel senseless..i feel deprived. i feel outcast. i feel i need a mask. i feel like nobody cares. no one else can share. i feel like nothing pays. no returns in dismay. i feel like the world is unfair.and what's more is that i care. i do have insecurities... and loads of failures. there is more to the brain and fame, the talent and pocket, the guts and glory...for beneath every strength is a weakness..i hold on to my life~ with the Lord as my sword. and myself to be dealt. i'm any ordinary person you can think of. who would've thought it figures?

there is more to life....

i'm a simple girl put in the shoes of a queen.

How difficult it is?
~ just as ironic.